Working through the hard parts

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Speed drawing is in part a way of coping with the issues currently faced. In high school the art teacher there said art is a form of meditation. I didn’t understand it at the time as I had not yet reached the fundamental of meditation. It is focus and it is calm. Today there are serious decisions, making a demo reel has me down at times. What I know as life now will not exist in the months to come. This is a good thing as it means the future is open to possibility’s but also a difficult thing. It has lead me to plan and place faith in the future outcomes.

To get past this bump on the road last week included a lot of planing and reorganizing for the next step of life. Starting two weeks ago meet up groups have been a priority. They are great resources for artists and other creatives to further their ability’s with group drawing and photography to name a few benefits other than creating interpersonal connections. So far there is a monthly Blender meet up, weekly life drawing and speed drawings as well as urban sketching and industry game developer get together. Since they usually happen at night it keeps me working on the demo longer during the day as well.

In addition I have been running the entrepreneurial machine writing up documents and ideas. Tutoring art is a great experience, to be a tutor you have to live the life of an artist. It places you in the spotlight demanding persistence and attention. It is a great motivator to succeed in endeavors.

The demo reel; The complexity and resolution of sculptures was overshot and so I wasn’t able to complete content fast enough to meet the deadline, as a result I bought another semester which I now feel is a wast of money. The school counts the demo reel class as two courses because they require you to take two classes a week in order to pass. However for me the class consists only of independent work. Very little value is being returned on the investment. There are issues with the administration of the school but I feel personally responsible for the outcomes so I wont complain about it. I do however feel that a serious conversation with my grading teacher will be necessary. In accordance with my value of Integrity there is no choice but to come forward to find a solution. That is my commitment.

Next week I am aiming to put up a collection of drawings. Including life drawing, speed drawing and block studies. I am also going to populate the demo reel with plants and finish up some of the main compositional pieces. Got my angry eyes on the prize 🙂

Looking forward to the next few weeks. Its hard to stay up but I’m in the game and staying strong.

-The Environment Guy


Blender Meetup Vancouver

For the first time in two years there is finally a Blender Meetup in Vancouver that actually meets up! I had the opportunity to meet a couple of industry artists as well as hobbyists at the groups first ever event. You might recognize a few of them, the organizer Mike Pan created the splash image for Blender 2.72b start up screen, there was also Eoin Duffy an academy award winner for the short film ‘The Missing Scarf‘, and a software developer from Nerd Corps came.

Despite the impressiveness of an academy award I though the most interesting highlight was a hobbyist named Julio. He said he was a chef  that quit his job to learn 3D graphics full-time so he could get a job as an artist at a studio. Really look forward as to what becomes of him, he showed us his first ever environment scene and I have to say it was way better than most people’s first.

You can check out the group and even join if you’re in the area here. I love to meet and we had some great discussions.

What I learned from a homless guy

Quite often I pass by homeless people begging for spare change or food when traveling through downtown Vancouver. The sharp pain of an empty stomach is not at all pleasant and I know that the person begging isn’t just trying to rip me off if they ask for a meal instead of turning everyone’s pockets inside out.

Trapped in a hallway about to exit to the street and surprise a homeless man standing right in-front of the entrance to ‘shake sown’ the pedestrians. Normally this means look busy and give a simile and wave with a sorry sort of look as you quickly pass by. This time I thought I was lucky because someone else got there just a few steps before me giving an opportunity for the next person to slip unnoticed behind him. Little did I know just how efficient this man was.

As I passed he sharply turned around and held a paper cup right at my chest asking if I could spare some change. It wasn’t that I disliked him personally but I was broke without a job and had deadlines coming up the next day. In no more than another month I too would have a financial situation like his own. But instead of getting away he stayed uncomfortably close to my side and asked a new question that asked if I would give him something to eat.

Food seemed reasonable and how much would a meal cost anyways, six maybe seven dollars? So I asked him what he wanted and he replied “just a sandwich, we can go to the store over there”. So I thought alright, this will only take a minute or two. I did ask what he wanted so it would be hard to back out now.

No more than ten seconds later we are in the store with the homeless guy in the lead. Obviously he had done this before and knew exactly what he wanted. And that’s when it happened, he started asking for other things such as three packs of cigarets. Unfortunately for him I am strongly against smoking so there was no way I would give him that. But that was only the first thing he asked for. Once we got to the aisle where the food was I realized what he meant by a sandwich was actually a jar of jam, jar of peanut butter, loaf of bread. Now that cost estimate in my head multiplied three times but knowing he was homeless and that it wouldn’t change my already dismal bank account it rationalized in my head. All the while he was asking for approval of each item just as his hand was about to pick them up and I agreed to all of it.

After that he wanted a box of Cheerios. It seemed the last thing he wanted so I was thinking give it to him and it will be over. So he got that and we went to the register. At the register the counter had a glass top with lotto tickets under it. He tapped and pointed at the ticket he wanted. Lotto being one of the other things I am against it was easy to decline, but if it wasn’t for personal feelings its possible he would have it.

Finally paying for the food he asked if its ok if he went outside and he was gone. Didn’t see him again, no talk or anything. Feeling disappointed I went on with the plans for the rest of the day with an foreboding feeling in my gut since I just spent $20 that could break this months budget.

Thinking about it now I realized that experience had a huge potential opportunity that went almost completely wasted. The only reason it’s not wasted is because of the gains from spending the time to analyze and write about it. Not only was that man a great negotiator but had I been upfront and spoke with him I could have gained more from his knowledge and experience as well as got some pictures which would help me with my art along with a possible friendship. So focused on the future the present slipped by.

The environment around us is largely shaped by humans. Including the homeless whose entire life is in the public environment. Their contributions deserve our respect and appreciation. To ignore those who live within and effect it comes as a great loss to any artist who wishes to better his or hers ability to create compelling art. Even if your socially awkward they are go to resources for photographers looking for interesting sites and an ideal source of life story’s.

One week afterwards I now keep some non perishable food in my bag to hand out. Not only is it easy to give when there are items on hand but its an instant way to meet an often overlooked social group. That $20 was an investment that has had payoffs far greater than its monetary value.

Website development and future plans

Its been almost one week since the creation of and development has been going smoothly so far. There was some difficulty setting up pages/categories but its all been sorted out. Some parts of the site are still under construction but the main parts are ready. You can learn all about what this site is about and who I am on the about page

There are a few posts already written and scheduled. Monday morning will show the first piece of digital modeling and painting, I know what it is and even I am excited.

Moving forward some things you can expect to see are a regular posting schedule. One on Monday and Friday at 7am GMT -8. There may be some posts on other days however these will not be regular occurrences. Second there are some pages under the about section that are being written and should be complete in a couple weeks time. And last of all will be making the currently in production portfolio/demo-reel available sometime in January 2015. There will not be any updates on the weekends unless its something like a technical problem that needs to be fixed.

There are a lot of plans that are scheduled over the next six months but you will have to wait to find out more 🙂

Thanks for reading and hope that we will get to know eachother in the months to come. If you want to contact me there is a contact form here.

A New Beginning

Its been eight years since deciding to learn 3D graphics. In the beginning I thought it was a convenient way to make ‘cool stuff’ without ever touching a pencil and paper. I thought apps and fancy next generation tools would solve all my problems and best of all I would never have to become one of those artist types who spend literally thousands of hours practicing doing he most mundane of tasks such as trying to design things on paper. That was all primitive things of previous generations.

Now its 2014, almost 2015. I have spent thousands of hours as well as dollars practicing ‘mundane things’. Its left me in nearly $30,000 debt to the government as well as an entirely new outlook on life. The money was spent to go to art school where I have worked with a number of computer games and movie industry veterinarians. I will complete school in a few months from now but I spent no delay on dubbing my self an ‘Environment Designer’. I’m proud to be called that however the true environment design part is only just beginning, and today is a first step in building some sort of legacy to that title. To write a blog post that probably wont ever bee read by more than a dozen people. I find that fact to be demotivating but after failing hundreds of times with just a handful of successes I am mentally and emotionally prepared to work through a long term commitment.

I cant see the path we walk on, but I do know our destination. So today we (aka myself since there is no one else here yet) point to the distant mountains in the mist and trudge through the swamp waters in anticipation of better days to come.

Thus ends the first exploration log of sir Jeremy (The Environment Guy). Future swashbuckler of environment design.